Jessica^alba.

2011-11-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hi all. I'm flying off tomorrow! I'm supposed to be asleep now but I'm having some insomnia. Probably too excited or worried. Anyway. I gotta reach airport at 0645, wake up at 4. Lalala. Thank God for providing for me so that I'm able to go for this trip.
A memorable journey awaits me with some of my closest friends. :)
I'll be back to share my experience . 29th November touchdown at night :)
Alios amigos!

Yet another story.

2011-11-14T00:24:00.002+08:00

"zzzzz" "zzzzz"
My phone sent out pulses of vibrations against the firm sofa.
I put down my pencil and shifted my attention from paper to screen. Little did I expect it would be you. My heart skipped a beat for a moment, and it started palpitating quicker than usual. Separate thoughts arose upon reading your message.
"oh come on. Did you send it to the wrong person? Or is it because do you not have a girlfriend to send you off? What , seriously, makes you think I'd do that? You've become a total jerk. Get a life. Unless you appear at my block. That'll be a surprise. "
"I'd love to. What time? Where do you want to meet? Do you need anything? I'll get it for you."
Conflicting feelings evoked within me as I gave a harsh and cold reply, while trying to get back on track with homework.
The battle went on, and it ended with questions unanswered. Deep down, I was tempted to give in and just sprout every thought. Nevertheless, I didn't.
I want you to grow up and mature. Think for yourself, for once, and be more aware of yourself. I hate the sight of you now. It's detestable and despicable, the way you act.
You claimed you made up your mind. Yeah, you did make up your mind : to continue sitting on fences. You make me doubt you and everything we shared. And I realize, I don't have to feel guilty and apologize anymore. You don't deserve my respect, trust, and empathy.
I'll still send you a bon voyage message. But I know I won't give in that easily, as much as my flesh wants to. My spirit is standing strong.

JAYESSLEE. :)

2011-10-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

enjoy ! :)

2011-10-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

Ohla Amigos. Finally have some pictures to blog with.
School has started ! Yes, again.
Teachers say they care. Teachers say all sorts of motivational things. But alas! They are all leaving us. Well, I do hope some wouldn't. But it seems like there's no other way out. They're leaving and that's that.
To be the best pencil, you gotta be willing to be guided by the hand that holds you.
It's the last week of ECP !!!!! Hang in there all you guys.
& Also to O LEVEL CANDIDATES. KEEP HOLDING ON. JUST A LITTLE MORE TO GO. YOU DIDN'T STUDY 10 YEARS JUST TO SCREW THIS ONE UP.

The above is MDM YEO'S BIRTHDAY CAKE during Nepal training on the 29th October Saturday. LOL. After having short breath she started gathering us together and we sang her a birthday song for the second time, with her face still pale from climbing the stairs. Nobody's perfect. She has her flaws, yes. But she's very sacrificial for the things she wants to do for others. Example, us. Her passion to groom leaders.

My dad is so sweet huhhh. There's a first time for everything. He bought this bouquet of 12 roses for my mum during their 22th Anniversary on 28th october. Anybody knows what 12 roses symbolise ?

Love the evening skies. :)

I went to BUFFET TOWN at RAFFLES CITY, CITY HALL for dinner yesterday.

Rojak, average

CANADIAN OYSTERS. *slurrrrps!

Cold prawns and crayfish! ^^

SASHIMIIIIIIIIIIIIII ! :D Salmon is my all time favourite

There was still many other foods like :

ROASTED WAGYU BEEF, eat the normal one before this, and you will feel like you've just entered food haven.

assorted fried stuff, fish and chips, pizza, sausages bake potatoes.

PASTA, choose your ingredients and they'll cook it to your liking

CHILLI CRABS, not comparable to specialised places as they added too much lemon which made the sauce a little too acidic. The crabs were fresh, though.

WINTER MELON SOUP, very full of flavour, superb :)

MINESTRONE SOUP, I would rate it better than Marche's.

DESSERT, I had CREPES WITH ICE CREAM. Definitely a good way to end your meal, although i would say Marche's and Max Brenner's beat this hands down. There were also fruits and assorted mini cakes. The TIRAMISU, CHOCOLATE, AND COFFEE MOUSE cakes are nice. The cheese cake was a little too strong for me, I still prefer the one bought from CWP's japanese restaurant at the basement with the cow logo. Teeheehee.

Physics in action. LOL! UV chops. I remember last time only Downtown East used to have this for their theme park. Now, its everywhere.

Alright, I shall stop here and hit the pillow soon! School is normal time tomorrow although it's Tuesday T.T Need to exercise and eat less ! gaining fats without fencing trainings.

Ciao!

namaste.

2011-10-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

2 months&4 days! hohoho.

Went swimming with zeeman this morning. I failed to get a tan. Totally dislike my fair skin. Water unfortunately got stuck in my ear, until now. Pfffft. The laws of gravity better work when I'm at sleep. We rushed to kfc for breakfast. Waffles and egg. PinkTroll claims the egg is powdered egg. Is it true?? :O

End Of Year Examinations were a big screw up, seriously. I'm just hoping my result slip won't turn out so bad because of previous grades that were good. 90% sure that I'm not getting a scholarship this year cuz it'll all go to the H class, top 21 in the level is no joke. The 10% goes to my optimistic nature. I'm relieved that I passed my Amath. But not satisfied with that. I got a A2 for Chinese as my SA2 however the overall is still B3, as always. Geography was a huge disappointment. Other than that, everything else was average, no comments. SPA is in November. I hope I dont have butter fingers and bird brains that day.

Extended curriculum tomorrow... Dreading it like most people do as well. This whole year has gone by like the wind. I wonder to myself all the time, where did all the time go to. Nonetheless, I've made it thus far. Next year, I'll make sure, for real, that I spend my time wisely. I wanna prove the school's system wrong, for underestimating me to get only 15 points for L1B5. I wanna prove myself wrong, for always having such low confidence. L1B5 8 points, here I come. Shall start to study after Nepal trip :)

Speaking of that, I'm very excited, or maybe not so. I'm having some, which is quite a lot, of trouble paying for all the things that I need. Seriously. Every time I think about it, tears will just well up in my eyes and I'll get all moody and frustrated. Still, God'll make a way out for me. Like how he's been doing the past 2 months. It's amazing how my family gets by with such a little sum we have. Staircase climbing gets more and more boring every week. But with more intensity as they increase the number of sets.

I have cravings for desert right now. Ice cream, waffles, hotcakes, crepes, fruits, pies.
And also mexican. Tacos, burritos, tortillas, nachos, and cheese.

Things to look forward to.
29 October Buffet Town
5th November The Quest.
6th November The Orange Thimble.
13th November Pulau Ubin Retreat.
20th November Nepal
December, SC Camp and S1OC planning.

Teehee. My life is so happening, I agree. Need to take more pictures! My mind's memory is full already. Desperately need soft copies.
Formspring me people ! :) Appreciate your comments and stuff.

Before I go, these girls are awesome. What they've done is really cool. I LOVE JAYESSLEE! *hearts*

2011-08-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

It's the middle of COMMON TEST 2. What a torturous process. T.T Pretty much screwed up the first 4 papers so far. Really praying for no fails. & also to do well for chemistry. Definitely will start mugging tomorrow. Maybe I shall go Suntec super early to study. I'm not too worried for physics, but I am for Amath and chemistry. PFFFFFFFT.

CHC 22ND ANNIVERSARY.
Lighted figures at a distance. On the designer's stage, bodies started popping and beats began rocking. Dancers got the ball rolling. The scene was pretty much like a party in a club. The song leads came up on stage, rapping and echoing. The crowd was in high spirits as we celebrated our 22nd anniversary. With the line up of the strikeforce and song items, not forgetting spreading the love around. Dr Kim played her piano piece very fluently, as if her fingers had no bones. Dynamic and accurate. Dr Cho gave a really good word.

Shocking experience.
"Bang!" early on a tuesday morning. Cordoned area. Tentage seen right under my unit. Traumatised for the whole day.

BYEBYE.

2011-08-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

ohla! Finally back after a long time. went to study at fifi's house today with a douche, penoy, nathaniel, and later on, JJ came along, creating chaos and epicness started. HAHA. Could hardly concentrate on doing my work. Got the constipated face cuz I was trying hard not to laugh, and concentrate. The douche kept saying I'm distracted, which made me really distracted. He is such an ass, seriously. Piss me off at KFC too. -.- If I were to pack him in a peel fresh carton, I'd label : 100% Douche. any douche-er and you must be one yourself.
Anyway, went down to shoot baskets for awhile before going back up when our butts burnt. Left and went to eat Lunch- KFC- FATTENING .

Met chickem noodle for a swim. Talked about the same old stuff we always do. But this time, I started it. oh well. Seems like the method I adopted is not working at all. Instead, it's like a boomerang hitting me back twice as hard right now. BOOHOO. Walked from condo back to semb and we were singing our way home. I realised that we were always singing the same set of songs, probably cuz we always talk about the same topic.

Time to go! Common test is coming! Quite stressed D: Need to buck up and pull my socks up up and away. BYEBYE.

imissyousobad.

2011-08-10T19:49:00.000+08:00

' He looked at his phone with a gloomy face, waiting for the alarm to ring signifying that he has received an sms. He waited and waited but to no avail and soon went off to bed because his patience began to waiver. At his bed, he pondered reminiscing the past and putting the memories in sync. If only an epitome of it would happen again then perhaps his days werent so dull. His heart now in pieces are so far away that it would take an eternity to repair but alas, he thought to himself,"What have I done wrong?" Tears started rolling down his cheeks slowly. With a depressed face, he punched the buttons using his phone and sent the message before going off to sleep, "Sorry for my imperfections." '

-L-F-2.

Off limits.

2011-08-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

Thinking about everything, I'm pretty much a fool that abides by everything. I'm sorry for being this kind of leader&role model in school. Maybe I shouldn't be too hard on myself, treat my duty that seriously, &just relax and not be the goodie two shoes that everybody dislikes. There's only so much I can do. I'm so tired of everything I'm doing. Nothing is working. Nobody's helping. I'll just leave it like that. I'll just leave it to the ones above me. Enough of all this nonsense. I shall channel my efforts and energy on studies instead. At least, I'm the captain of the ship I'm steering and I know the direction I wanna take. I can make the things that I want happen on this ship and I have all the help I need.

2011-07-20T18:45:00.002+08:00

You don't love me enough to even talk face to face and trash things out. I guess the misunderstanding doesn't matter to you. It's not worth your pride, time, and effort.

2011-07-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

Faithfully <3

Candles :)

Status: Deprived of sleep.
Hi there folks !
I'm suffering from the lack of sleep right now. zzzz -__- zzzz
Went to catch a TRANSFORMERS after rehearsal for Chinese Play Finals with Yvan & Adrian. Yvan's treat ! :) heeheehee.

An action packed movie. Although the duration is 2&1/2 hour, it's enjoyable and you wouldn't feel that it is too long. I never fail to feel touched at scenes where soldiers are afraid but still take the step out and risk their lives for their country and its people.

Today's been long. Maybe because I'm tired. But ! I wrapped up the school week with a fun training ! When it ended, we jumped rope, played zero point and limbo.

I think double dutch competitions are cool. Very.

Some moments were just epic & hilarious. LOL. Helixman and Yisong can do a triple jump. When will I ever do one ? T.T Not much homework this weekend. Haven't found the time to get some stationaries like foolscap paper and correction tape (still contemplating as I'm training myself not to use it). Probably after Sunday's tuition.

That's all for now :)

Ciao !

2011-07-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

"If you miss me, you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me."

— No Strings Attached

i scream for ice cream.

2011-07-05T21:02:00.025+08:00

booyah.
This is a scheduled post ! I was afraid I didn't have enough time to blog, so I typed an extra post to schedule it.
I'm craving for ice cream now, so, this post will be all about Ice Cream !

After trying

swiss chocolate&crepe with fresh strawberries-Marche

Bailey's&Bourbon, Rum&Raisin&waffle-Udders

chendol, cookies&cream with waffle-Icekimo

My next target will be

ICE CREAM CHEFS.

SALTED CARAMEL.

BASKIN ROBBINS.

I actually have a bad impression of this due to the drink my brother ordered in malaysia.

Hope the Ice Cream is good, from what others say.

Besides ice cream,

CUPCAKES.

There's a new stall opening in United Square Novena called the TWELVE CUPCAKES [click] &no, they do not only sell twelve cupcakes. :B It's started by Jamie Teo & Daniel Ong, if you remember them. They were radio DJs if I'm not wrong. Do support them ! :) Their cupcakes look delicious. *nom nom nom.

Alright. Have a nice time feeling hungry after reading this post !

Goodbye !.

2011-07-04T11:47:00.000+08:00

Good Morning ! Its a Youth Day Holiday today !

Lets start off with a random song I'm thinking off right now. Enjoy! :)

Yesterday was a fruitful day ! Met up with Fiona for a blading and catch up session @ Sentosa ! A new experience roller blading at the Sentosa Broadwalk and in sentosa itself. As usual, I will fall. Teehee. Half-fell down once, and banged into railings another time. Got myself a bruise on the knee and a small little wound. But its fine compared to the first time blading to school from home. The night view at the boardwalk is so nice. Loved the chatting sessions by the beach. :>

i miss us.

Picture taken off the internet as I took absolutely no pictures yesterday T.T

Met YL for breakfast today :)) Saw Ms Trixie Lim and Ms Wong in KFC on my way to Mac :O When Mac played "Everlasting love" , she asked me to watch this video. Cool to the max. The best wedding ever. Enjoy !

How amazing is that ! Ohmy. heeheehee. Thats about all for today. Pray that this coming week at school wouldn't be bad. Lalala. My mum just came in to my room and complained that its the only room she steps in and feels like fainting while I can live with it. OH WELL. Can't blame me. I got the genes from my dad. :X

I'll be spending my day burried in homework although I have the sudden urge to go for a swim. >.<

Oh right ! SUPPORT THIS [click] It's a project my friend&co has to do for their business course, or something like that. :)

Enjoy your day folks!

Ciao!

2011-07-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

It's FRIDAY no more.
2nd of JULY people! The second half of 2011. Hope its gonna be great! Awaiting the Nepal Trip with councillors :D Can't wait to climb the mountains, see the sun sets and rises, and gaze at pretty stars in the night!

Got the pictures off Google. Couldnt find any pictures of the night time sky. But I can't wait to have the breath taking experience ! Teehee :))

Cell Group a few hours ago. It's been pretty long since I actually went. Quite blessed by the meeting :) Felt the presence I havent felt for a long time. PTL :)

Currently, I'm in a sleepy state, so I think I'll just end the post here. Service @JW tmr :) Will complete the pile of homework in the morning (hopefully, knowing my pattern)

Goodbye. :D

FORMSPRING ME.

2011-06-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

I'm back again :)
Semester break is over ! Time for a new Term/Semester. D: It's 14 weeks till End Of Year exams. Then it would be ECP, holidays, and 2012 ! Time seems to fly twice as fast as last year. It's already JULY very very soon. ohgosh. I should be putting away the attitude of procrastination from now.

There isn't training this whole week, a little disorientated, but it's a good time for me to catch up on some AMaths. I desperately need HELP. Any recommendations for a good tutor, FORMSPRING ME !! It's really urgent.

I planned on finishing Binomial's graded assignment today. But unfortunately, I wasn't aware of the difficulty level. I totally can't do the last few questions of the practice worksheet. OHMY. My aim for AMath for EOY is C6. Three grades aint that far right? x.x Hopefully, my other subjects will still maintain when I focus on AM. :/

Today was a gloomy day at school. Dark skies and grey clouds. Mr Lee forgot our names and faces ! :O I hope it's just a little joke he's playing on us. During chinese, there wasn't any single teacher for the whole period. Boring maxx. Was sleeping and playing smurfs. LOL. Went to KTPH with Ziman and Nixuan after school. Weighed ourselves and ate lunch. I GAINED WEIGHT. What devastating news. Gonna cut down on eating for now. Pfffft.

Transformers is showing on channel 5 now, and my brother's watching. LOL. Gonna off the computer for the 9pm C.L.I.F. on channel 8! It's the last episode today. Bet it will be a happy ending like all the other ch8 dramas. HAHA. The lack of ability to create new endings and scenarios, or is it just giving viewers a fairytale-like hope that everything has a happy ending.

Goodbye!

2011-06-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

for now.

2011-06-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

Hi there folks!

Today's been a pretty tiring day, maybe due to the lack of sleep last night. Went to training in the morning. The ogre woke up late and arrived when training ended. YAY. Then, wanted to go to her house but mama and bro were going out so I went home. Lazed around for half an hour before bathing and setting off to get my brother's phiten x50.

Walked around the quiet Marina Square and had desserts at the Esplanade 's ICEBOX. The MUDPIES there are just the thing you need for a hot and sunny yellow (banana) day. Each mudpie cost $12. The ambience there is not bad too. Windy and cooling in the afternoon, and plain beautiful at night. Since mama didn't have enough (-.-)'' , we headed down to 313@ somerset's Marche for more crepes and ice cream. I was dead full by then, so I only ate the strawberry toppings and some little pieces of warm crepe, carefully avoiding the ice cream. To end it all off, I had mushroom soup. Met dad and went home. Along the train ride, I felt like puking, not that I have Bulimia. But, the food intake is really too much for me.

Fact about me: I can't stand my family's eating habits, seriously. I have take so much effort to control my own diet cause unlike some of my friend's families, nobody controls my diet for me. I don't have homecooked meals everyday. I eat out every single time. Being so conscious about what I eat is a tough job.

Anyway, me and mum then went out again for mani/pedi @ SP. Thanks to my mum, I got a treatment of torture, to remove my dead skin from my feet (result of fencing). I'm naturally tickly. Couldnt help fidgeting when the manicurist was scrubbing my feet. Sayonara dead skin. Coloured my nails even though school's reopening soon. Haven't got my transparent earsticks for my piercing when school reopens. Goodbye gold stud.

Fact about me : I have this habit of playing with my earrings when I'm bored. As a result, I keep losing the studs and stoppers.

No pictures for today. I'M LAZY.

Ciao !

2011-06-18T16:58:00.000+08:00

Oh right.
I forgot to add.

FORMSPRING ME !

pictures from google.

2011-06-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

Hi all !

I had a retarded Friday yesterday @Ongzeeman 's house. We played PICTIONARY first because Pooneh was desperate to play board games.

1) Ong's room floor has uncountable hair strands.

2) Poon & Ong are the most fail partners ever, I swear.
Pooneh cant draw a soul and sleeping beauty for Ong. &Ong cant draw a wooden spoon for Pooneh. HAHA.

3) I think we kinda failed at playing this game because we end up talking about the picture while drawing it.
"what is this thing??" *point point* "okay okay, remember that. plus this" *draws* "whats this plus this??" ................ "what is this?" --answer-- "no no ! another word for that." --answer-- "very close" --answer-- "something like that." ......................

Poon left shortly after. The remaining 3 musketeers then played monopoly deal. Fithriyaani 's first time playing, & kept taking cards after her turn. After awhile, we realised she had super lots of $$ . Out of guilt, she gave most of the money away. BUT ! That doesn't really matter, because I won. HAHA. Jkjk. Before winning, I deal broke Ong. She tried to Force Deal Yaani and Deal Break me but got back a rejection from both of us. She was pointing her finger in a fit of buay-shiokness. LOLOL.

The last game was DDR. My first time playing that in a home. & I suck at it. Even if its using the controls or stepping the mat, I get an E. Only for basic mode I got C & D . --Failed-- #Facepalm. Plus, I got all sweaty after randomly jumping on the mat to try to hit some arrows.

Went to night training with Ong. @TSS

The pretty sky during warm up :)

Fence Fence Fence Fence Fence Fence Fence.

Dinner time ! Supposedly to take away to Mac and eat with the Juniors. But we forgot to say take away, & ended up not going to Mac at all. Had Eat Noodles and Rock&Ash Fries. Filling ttm.

Dead tired when I got home, and slept with quite a bloated tummy. Growing fat D:

Looking forward to have more of these whacky days with fencers before we all graduate.

I should get started on other things now. My to-do list is 80% unchecked.

TTFN!

The last time I used that tatafornow was ages ago.

stuck with each other.

2011-06-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

Two weeks of the holidays flew past already. I've not done any school work! It's just been fencing fencing and more fencing. But still, I'm not training hard enough. Maybe I'm pushing myself a little too hard, but I really want to win a gold or at least a silver one day. I hope I'll make it someday.

" it's okay ! dont worry too much okay !! you just need to train harder & have more competition experience im sure you will be able to improve alot ! plus you got istvan he is a very good coach so dont worry ! "

" Since you know that what's stopping you from doing well is your confidence level then you should try & improve mentally ! The first step in doing well is to have confidence that you can do it, being scared of your oppenent at the beginning of the bout is like fighting a losing battle, my jiaolian said when you just go up and fence everyone is the same, we all start out from 0 - 0. No one is better than the other we are all the same, the rest of the bout depends on our mentality and how we fence. Mentality can train & built up but this depends on you, you must believe in yourself ! "

"It depends on how you push your back leg whether its lunge or fleche! As you train more you will naturally become faster. But for now just work on counter-attack cos its easier to train than attack!"

This is what dreams are made of.

There's something to do for me to improve fencing and studies. But there isn't a way out for other things. My mind has be wandering off these days. I absolutely do not have anything good to blog today. so, goodbye.

I feel like swimming.

not your ordinary girl anymore

2011-06-09T21:39:00.001+08:00

When you're fifteen, and somebody tells you he loves you, you don't have to believe him. Trust me.

Indescribable feelings, a sudden rush of words through my head. Memories, supposed to fade, but they don't, even after deleting every single thing from contacts to pictures in your phone. You can't delete them in your mind, no matter how hard you try.

To the guy I love,

You know what? To me, your love, is just another mistake, the biggest lie ever. You're just desperate. You don't love me, neither do you love her. No words can express how disappointed I am.

I admit, in the beginning, it was my mistake to break up with you. It was my fault for keeping you away. But its my mistake no more. Its yours. You totally took my heart and broke it into a million pieces. Just when I started to put my trust in you, thinking we might actually have a future together, you broke the last straw. Asking both of us girls for a patch at about the same time? That's totally uncool, yo.

At that point of time, I was really at lost of what to do. I didn't know whether to trust you and be naive, ignorant to everything else, or give up and move on. I felt like screaming to the whole world, just that, I didn't have one anymore. You took it away. You made my world inhabitable.

Up till now, I'm still missing you. But the thought of your actions, just disgust me, and make me furious. Why the hell am I in love with a bastard like you? You're not handsome in any way, not talented, not smart, not rich. WHY ?!

No, I'm not replying your texts anymore. I deleted you from my contacts, on facebook as well, if you did not notice. As much as it hurts me, I'm gonna move on eventually. I've had the thought of just using you to get revenge. But, in the end, I would hurt myself even more. I don't want to be that dumb.

Every night, I can't help but think of the times I had with you. Then, I'd go in a deep sleep, just thinking of you subconsciously, and wake up into the painful reality that no, you are not who I think you are anymore. You've changed. You're not what I'm looking for at all. You're just another beautiful lie.

Don't stare at me any more during sports. Don't contact me anymore. Don't make things difficult for me. I'm trying to forget you. I know you're reading this. So, please, just don't hurt me anymore. I'm fighting the feelings I have for you. And I'm on the verge of losing. Help me win this battle.

-----The girl who truly loved you, and thought you honestly loved her back.

This story is fiction. Any resemblance to real life situations is unintentional.

2011-06-07T17:55:00.000+08:00

Since I have the time right now, I shall blog about everything that happened so far to the best of my memory. I'm pathetically updating my schedule book (that hasn't been touched since the last week of school) while recalling memories.

May 31 Tuesday night.
Met up with Aster Mae YanXin HuiMin & SinYan for dinner @ chompchomp .

Spicy KangKong

The 3 dishes.

Doesnt this look like a frog ? Quite cute eh. ^^

Lalaaaaaaa

All the 3 dishes were spicy. I couldn't help but keep taking tissue to wipe my perspiration , and drinking my sugarcane after a few mouthfuls.
After finishing, we headed to frolick, where I spotted at a distance while eating.

$3 :)

That wraps up the day :)

Fencing Camp 1-3 June.

Pretty.

As I blogged on 1st June on the bus to Sentosa, the weather was awful. When we all reached there, training was cancelled, which left us with around 5 hours at vivo city, own time own target. I went with Fithriyaani.

I think we're the best partners ever ! :B

We went to eat at the foodcourt, then Yigloo, then went around to shop. Paid F21, Zara, TopShop, & Cotton On a visit. Totally into the shopping mood lah ! I almost bought clothes, and somehow I regretted not buying at that time cuz now I'm pretty lazy to go back there.

The things on top of my list now:
1) That dress, tanktop, and skirt from Zara.

2) Cotton On Blouse and high waist shorts.
3) Stuff from F21.

Then, we went to have fruit tart @ Fruit paradise and beard papa cream puffs.

Met the rest at the rooftop water play area, took some pictures and went to the bus bay at the cruise centre to assemble.

All in all, we treated ourselves to a main course and 3 course dessert, and satisfied our window shopping craves !

Lying under the evening sky.

Saturday 4th June.

Went to school in the morning for SC sec 1 selection exercise.

I cant really disclose anything cuz its confidential.

In the afternoon around 3 plus, met Angelin and the rest to head down to Lasalle College of the Arts to view exhibitions of works by graduating students, specifically, Jaclyn's work, Diploma for Design (Interior Design)

Cecilia's project was inspired by the moving of venue of City Harvest Church. It was a design of a new building for CHC in the marketplace. Although it most probably would not happen at this point in time, the project was really well done.

Project Runway ? heh.

Doing a Diploma in Interior Design is tough work man ! Research, and your development of ideas. You also have to construct the model of your design. Blown away by the works there. Definitely, a lot of patience and skill is required. Maybe... Design wouldn't be my choice.

The bunch of us went to eat Nando's @ Bugis Junction before heading to JW for service. They're famous for their Peri-Peri chicken recipes.

Over there, they talked about THIS event that happened. LOL much. Joked about whether we should ask them to serve us water, then they will clap for us when we leave. HAHA. I ordered a lemon&herb grilled quarter chicken. I'm afraid of spicyness. :)

A couple of us went to the ATM for money, then got some bottled drinks to bring into Nando's.

I like the one with Garlic and this ^^

Sunday 5th June

Went to Marina Barrage with some fencers. Nothing much to elaborate actually, cuz there's nothing much done there except eating and flying kites. The total sum of money spent on the picnic food was over 90 bucks ! Headed down to somerset to have my piercing checked and cleaned. Supposedly to watch a movie but there wasn't any suitable timings, so they went to eat BK. Belle, ZiMan and I went to grab Frolick first.

with fruit pebbles

Ate home cooked porridge for dinner :)

Yesterday night, I was terrified. A beetle or bee flew into my room, and constantly buzzed around. The sound produced by the flapping of its wings made me shiver and freak out. It flew directly infront of me while I was reading Eat.Pray.Love. I shrieked and jumped outta bed, out the door. When my dad eventually caught it, he act smart, telling me " you see this? see ahh. * let go of it* " IT FLEW BACK IN ! "It's attracted to light as well" --wise words from dad -.- Couldn't read in peace, so I went out to watch the recorded episodes of Glee from Sunday's Glee-a-thon on Star World. Went to bed at 2am.

The fever's gone this morning when I woke up at 11 plus. Phew. Thank God for Healing !

Right. I've spent the past hour plus doing this post. Shall end of with some from tumblr. Bye :)

sudden liking for owls.

you have me no more.

craving for waffles and ice cream. any recommendations ? :)

I do not know you anymore, fcuking bastard.

Sorry for the offensive language used.

Put in a little more

2011-06-06T22:18:00.000+08:00

I'm actually supposed to blog about some stuff but I forgot what. I've been pretty lazy these days, which explains why. And, I'm supposed go upload pictures too . Oh well.

Currently down with a slight fever. Probably started out with the bad headache earlier this morning during training. Couldn't even think straight and caused slow reactions. My muscles around my neck and shoulder are aching now. Grrr. That's what improper stretching does to you . Hopefully by tomorrow morning the fever subsides and I can go training. Competition is on Friday and Saturday ! I gotta train hard yo. If all's well, I will go night training tomorrow.

Heard from poon that my rank is 18 now. Looks like my efforts are not really going to waste. Im gonna train harder to catch up the ranks, or at least maintain it.

My plans to do maths and read everyday is sorta failing badly D: I really really really have to cut the habit of not fulfilling plans !! I'm sucha procrastinator. Bad me. Shall get so e rest now .

Goodbye :)

Down & Dirty.

2011-06-01T13:43:00.000+08:00

The wheels on the bus go round and round!
That's right. I'm on the bus to sentosa for resistance training now. It's the first ever fencing camp ever since the fencing club started in CCHY. Luckily I can blog from my iPhone.
the clouds are so grey D: it just started pouring. Cats&dogs. Hope it's a different story at the island. Im now very sticky as dirty after the morning of frying fish and supermans.

Currently damn bloated after mr Neo's water parade. Feel like going to the restroom! >.<'
Shall catch some sleep on the bus now! Back after 3 days :)

#nowplaying - Avril Lavigne Runaway

2011-05-30T22:27:00.001+08:00

I GOTTA GET MY THOUGHTS SORTED OUT.
I GOTTA GIVE MY FUTURE SOME THINKIN'
I GOTTA STOP TRYING SO HARD TO BE SOMEBODY THAT I'M OBVIOUSLY NOT.
I GOTTA TREASURE AND ENJOY WHAT I HAVE RIGHT NOW BEFORE THE NEXT MOMENT I'LL NEVER KNOW IT'S GONE.
I GOTTA GET OUT OF THIS NOTHINGNESS.
I GOTTA LEARN TO JUST BE ME, MYSELF.

on a lighter note

2011-05-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

Although I came back with this 2-in-1 wound and bruise,

I purposely took it that far from the target so that my leg hair wouldn't be so obvious.

HAHA.

I still have things to be happy for, like,

My brother got me ice-cream ! This is much more expensive than my ice cream that he finished up few weeks ago. (Y) Mum also bought fresh strawberries & after 8 chocolates. :B

I bought my guards for roller blading !

& I bought my new iPhone casing ! :)

I also pierced my second ear hole. Teehee :D

Tomorrow marks the start of the June Holidays ! Time to hit the waters, soak up some vitamin D, and have plenty of fun, not neglecting revision and doing math. :D GSS has also started. Hope I will find the time to go shopping, & watch movies! FF5, Thor, Pirates of the Caribbean, and KungFu Panda 2 are on my list. I think Thor and FF5 will be gone soon, or are they gone already ? :O Im such a lagger.

Alrights! Will stop blogging for today.

Ciao ! :B

Age is just a number

2011-05-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

Went for a competition today, with no age limit.
I guess most of the nat squad were there.
It was no surprise that I didnt even make it through the poules, because of the fact that I did not train for a whole week due to AEM. This is the first time I actually got eliminated at the round robin. Well, like they say, there's a first time for everything. Pretty upset at myself, but nobody's to blame.
And, I'm beginning to think that some people are quite heartless. Poked me directly at the shin bone and it actually bled, and she didnt even say sorry or smth, and gave me a bitch face after taking off the mask when she won. Like, whattheshit. Dumdy dumdy dum. It was an accident, I suppose. But at least apologise lah. Fencing, like what teacher said, when the mask is up, nobody's your friend. *lightning strike. thunder sound.*

I will train harder. I must buck up.

On the contrary, I don't know why I put so much hope and effort on this sport.

I just doubt I will get into nat squad anyway. I dont think I'll go far.

So, why do I take it so seriously, get pumped up and dissapoint myself?

Lacking self confidence.

Lacking will power.

Ain't my day.

2011-05-29T20:15:00.000+08:00

"I feel so far away
From everything I used to be
So I just hang my head
And feel ashamed like there's nothing I can do"
- Good Charlotte [There She Goes]

"Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?

Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
You're better off that way"
- Avril Lavigne [Don't Tell Me]

"The power lines went out

And I am all alone
I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone"

"All the games you played

The promises you made

Couldn't finish what you started

Only darkness still remains"

"Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright"

"Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste"
- Hey Monday [Candles]

"It's gettin lonely livin upside down

I don't even wanna be in this town"
- Simple Plan [Jet Lag]

"Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah

Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days"

"You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud"

"I just wanna scream and lose control

Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah"
- Avril Lavigne [Runaway]

"Where is the moment we needed the most ?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away and I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime and I don't need no carryin' on"

"Because you had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day, you had a bad day"

"Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong and I'm not wrong"

"So where is the passion when you need it the most ?"
- Daniel Powter [Bad Day]

awesome week, maybe.

2011-05-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

This week has been fun. Went for Advance Elective Module @ NYP about nanotechnology. Most of the time during the course was for practicals and breaks actually. The lecture portion was quite minimal, I would say. Learnt about the basics of nanotechnology and its applications. The interesting parts are actually the use of the equipments cuz the results like the images produced are super cool.

&also, the added fun of staring at icandies :B I probably wont forget that guy in the next room. He's jaw! Nadia and Christine should know what I'm talking about. teeheehee.

Now, some pictures and videos. more on facebook. :)
Day1

Day2

Messy tables for practical .

The end result ! :D

HDFT silver coated copper pieces. :)

Superhydrophobic surfaces :)

Cups from the refreshments. thumbs up!

Day3

E-learning hour!

Some oscilloscope machine.

Pictures from website games.

Cute &fun with the incorporation of information of nanotech.

Day4

Going through the various tests for the PLA samples we made on day3.

Idontgetthegraph!

I will miss NYP.

Site visits were also conducted at the end of each day. The first one was in the area our class was in. The biomedical engineering hub. Only year 2/3 students study there, so I guess people who didnt know were quite surprised that we entered. A brief introductory of each room, equipments & what the students do.

The second one was the sports area. Swimming pool, stadium, multipurpose court. The stadium and pool was like awesome ttm. :B I would like to go there. But then again, JCs have stadiums themselves, and other polys have similar facilities too. The visit to the library was cancelled :(

It was replaced with the visit to the design school and aerospace engineering hub. which was the upper and lower level of our hub. Design school interests me a lot. But, I dont think I have much creativity, and thus, not cut out for the courses. Future prospects for designers aren't very well in Singapore either, as from what I hear around. Medical related and engineers will be scouted for even more in the future.

Thinking about my future path is such a chore. I dislike that I'm fickle minded towards these things. & also the fact that my interests change pretty fast. Adding on to that, I'm not good in anything, at least, that's what I think.

I guess the reason why I always want to try new things is because I haven't found what I'm best at yet.

[twitter@fencerroo 26may]

I hope I will do well for O's so that my choices are not limited. I wanna go to open houses of polys and JCs asap.

Humanity w/ Respect.

25 May 2011, Fundraising Carnival cum WalkAJog.

I ran the distance of est. 2.5km! I died at the zigzag slope, the one closest to the finishing line, &emerged 12th out of the 16 Bgirls and 21st out of the 32 girls in total.

This just reiterates to myself the point that I'm really out of shape. I plan to go running tomorrow morning to yishun park, yes, the place that I couldn't continue running. But I don't dare to go alone D: afraid of the chance that some stabber or kidnapper would attack me.

After the run, went back to school to buy food from my class stall and help out for the rainbow centre games. The kids are damn cute. Syahirah and Jill. teehee :B

I want to go there to volunteer during the June holidays. Probably would head down with Fithri.

Actually, it just takes patience and a heart to just be with these kids. &at the end of the day, you will feel happy that you've been there. :) They're humans too. They just need people who are patient and caring enough.

Another thing I want to do this holidays is math and read books. I will do a little a maths and e math everyday for an hour. and read for an hour. *pray that I will keep to my resolutions.

It will be training almost everyday in June. SC activites also going on. & when these two come together, they certainly will crash, and I'll be troubled. But its okay. I'll learn to manage.

Tattered&torn.

Till then,

Keep smiling!

2011-05-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

I havent blogged for quite long eh. Im lazy today. But since is a public holiday and I dont really feel like studying, why not ?
Firstly, Happy Vesak Day!
To be honest, I dont really know whats it about.
Had training at clementi today. It felt super weird to be fencing again after the long exam break. My stamina dropped a lot yo! I cant even move properly. Oh wells. Its time to work hard. My ranking is 19 if im not wrong. Forever stuck there. Sometimes I think, whats the point of trying so hard when I'll forever be stuck at the same place.

School tomorrow. Exams are over! But its back to normal lessons. The sad cycle of school life. But I guess, studying is better than working cuz you just gotta, well, study, and keep your grades up.

My life is like study--> training--> SC--> exam--> competiton--> *repeat.
Blah ! I want to take a break !

The mid year results came back to me like a slap in the face, yo! Time to work harder ! aishhhhh. Any study buddy out there ? Lalalalalalalalalalala.

Pictures now. I dont really know what i want to say. thats why the stuff are all like jumbled up. Pretty much, they are all crap. so, lets get to pictures.

Gotta blast!

2011-05-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

Health:

1.Drink plenty of water.

2.Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

3.Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

4.Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy

5.Play more games.

6.Read more books than you did in 2010.

7.Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

8.Sleep for 7 hours.

9.Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

1.Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

2.Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

3.Don’t over do. Keep your limits.

4.Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5.Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.

6.Dream more while you are awake.

7.Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

8.Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

9.Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.

10.Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.

11.No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

12.Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

13.Smile and laugh more.

14.You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

1.Call your family often.

2.Each day give something good to others.

3.Forgive everyone for everything.

4.Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

5.Try to make at least three people smile each day.

6.What other people think of you is none of your business.

7.Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

1.Do the right thing!

2.Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

3.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

4.No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

5.The best is yet to come.

6.Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

-poeticheartache.tumblr.

The Mid-Years are coming to an end !

Continue to work hard, people! Just two more days of papers.

Emaths today. Didn't expect such a killer paper from Mrs Goh. I hope I'll pass, which most likely I will. But, as for my A, I doubt I can get it. Do away with the questions that I was really clueless about, my maximum marks is 88. Oh wells, It's over! :D

Chemistry and Amaths left. I hope chemistry will be alright! Amath, I'll just try my best.

I actually wanted to study a little chemistry today after I reached home, but I ended up sleeping for 4 hours! Yeah, I know, I'm great in bed. I shall head out for dinner right now!

Bye :)

Stay, Happy.

2011-05-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

from tumblr.

Bored. Cant sleep.
Bye.

2011-05-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

Hello. It's our well deserved Labour Day today! Tomorrow's no school, and no work I suppose. I'll be busy studying for Mid-Year. What about you ? :) Went studying at the esplanade on Friday with YL. I wouldn't say it was very productive, but neither was it a waste of time.

Are these really popcorns? Why are they so big? Why can't cinemas pop such big corns too?

By the way, Caramel Crisp or whatever its called is really sweet.

I want to try Cheese Corn some other day.

The night view is much nicer, promise.

Scroll down. :)

What did I tell ya? Nice eh?

Awe-strucked.

I woke up the next day to back to school for physics and emath supp. The above was my breakfast. As I walked to school, felt unwell, like hot and cold, and I was sweating when the weather was quite cool. But I was alright by the time I left school in the afternoon :) Slept until about 5, studied till 7, went to AMK to buy stuff and had dinner there. When I reached home at about 10, I studied till 12 ++ 1am.

Woke up at 6 today! Aren't I awesome? Served, stayed for service. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALISON YAP. Although the probability of her seeing this is almost, well, zero. But yeah. She's an awesome singer I tell ya. English Chinese and even Japanese. Her vocals are just great. Met my mum for lunch at Just Acia. Their soft serve ice cream, which is free flow, is very very very nice. I slept from 3.30 to 6.30, woke up.

NOW IM BLOGGING.

Shall start studying in a while.

Bye !

Have a nice day tomorrow :)

Students, all the best for your mud years :)

2011-04-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

This is the last thing left on my to-do list for today! It's 11pm alreadyeee. I should actually be studying for geog&amaths test tomorrow, but I'm here blogging. See my commitment to be a good blogger ?!

Cut the crap. I shall get straight to the post itself.

Last weekend, was easter. Ong, KaiJun, and Benj came for the service, the centurion @ chc :)

Exams are starting this friday, yo! Yet I still have time to...

Fold stars ! Please, just tell me that I'm one awesome little girl. Its not that I don't study, of course. I do it between my study sessions. Today, I tried out what Ms Kate told us during SS. Because of seeing the super bad marks I got, she started of with asking how we all studied for tests. Answer : Reading notes. Then the continued by saying we should do notes, flash cards, mindmaps, and study time table. 20 min study, 2 min break, for one hour. Being the ever obidient and disciplined girl,

I studied! Comfortably in my hoodie with breezing cold air conditioning on my bed :B

I finished by 9.45, went to watch tv and fold these:

Cute right! I bought it from a bookshop at khatib central by recommendations of Dory. Too bad they only had one packet of this design. I shall go back after the exams to see if the new stock arrives.

Its tuesday tomorrow! Thank God for the wake-up-late school day.

Thank God also for saving my comp. After restarting, the files in this lappy were suddenly missing. Luckily it came back after I tried to switch accounts here and there. Hoho. :)

Let the pictures do the talking :) Enjoy! [I got all these from an iPhone app.]

I will end off with this -----

Goodnights. :)

2011-04-21T20:06:00.000+08:00

Isn't it just beautiful?

That's the pretty morning sky I captured on the bus along the way to clementi sports hall.

Went to school all hyped up after listening to the music and watching a youtube video. A coach was giving his rugby team a prep talk. Awesome stuff, really. Left school after reading period. Mr Neo gave some prep talk on the bus before we set off. Then its self pyscho session with your ipods and whatever. To me, it didn't really feel like competition. It just felt like I'm going there to support my juniors. Reached, C Div Epee started their warms up and blah blah blah. B Div went to eat subway :) When it was finally our turn to warm up, suddenly I felt the jitters. Round robins kinda sucked for me, like really. The scores were something like a lost 4 matches 5-2/3, won 2 like 5-4. Thanks to Coach Istvan for the encouragement. He came to tell me "Jessica, you can fence well. Its only... 2 o clock. You can do better in the later part of the competition. Come on." with the hungarian slang. True enough, things took a turn for the better. Made it to top 32, then top 16, top 8, and top 4. Unfortunately, I think I kinda lost it when fighting for 3rd rank. Blanked out for the first 5 points. after the first 3mins, 5-2. Panic. But still managed to catch up. In the end, lost 15-13.

Well, I'll definitely train harder, and try harder for the next competitions. As of 26 Feb 2011, I'm national rank 19. I really want to try for nat squad. A wish almost unattainable. But you'll never know if you never try. Oh well.

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Saw this little cat while on the way to have dinner at a nearby coffeeshop. It looks like a mini snow leopard don't you think?! Cute! :)

(L)

Thanks to YL for the skittles :)

Today, a quintet came down to share with us about classical music and played some parts of pieces. They took us through the different periods of music, the traditions, the types, some history. I really enjoyed the performace yo!

They say "Pictures paint a thousand words." , and I say "Music paints a thousand pictures." :)

I closed my eyes and just immerse myself in the melodious sounds of the flute, oboe, french horn, bassoon and clarinet. Some of the tunes just remind me of cartoons I watched as a kid, like Tom&Jerry. Seriously, I swear. LOL.

Its Good Friday tomorrow ! Enjoy the long weekends, people!

Bye. :)

2011-04-03T17:01:00.000+08:00

Sick of the routine.
Sick of homework.
Sick of fighting on.

Its okay to feel like this sometimes.

I'm bored by homework. I don't feel like doing anything. Or rather, I feel like going out to relax, have fun, probably make myself useful, and not do homework. I think I'll go do some CIP after competition. No trainings give me more time for homework daily. I don't have to push everything to the weekends and leave no time for me to chill out. I'm thinking of going to SPCA to help out. Afterall, I just love animals :)

Two more weeks. Endure.

Plastic bags are not useless.

In fact, they're probably one of the most commonly used item.

Drifting through the wind,

just waiting to be picked up and used.

A plastic bag that's improperly disposed off,

might end up in the ocean,

killing some endagered species of turtles.

Find me a fool.

2011-04-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

It's April Fools Day.

Woke up later than usual by about 15 minutes. Rushed out of the house, fearing I would miss my usual train. Indeed, I missed it, but fortunately, the next train was 2mins later.

Reached school, saw Bryan and Abu change into short pants. Looks weird. Thinking about it, they've grown a lot since last year. Their shoulders are broader and they are much much taller! There was a guy that wore a skirt, from what I heard. On duty, Penghui walked past me saying " eh vice president. your tie." I fell for it. Cuz in the morning, Arif told me my tie had something wrong, for real. Then, two little cute sec 2 girls tried to fool me by saying "ehhh ehh. your badge leh?" which totally failed. HAHA. During PE, after our round, YanBin was talking about Mian Bao Chao Ren. That jsut made me think of Chocolate and Bread and eating both elements. I feel like going to watch it again online too! Hope I dont get hooked on and neglect my studies.

After PE, we went back to class. Cloves lesson. We all decided to turn the tables facing the back of the class. The prank wasn't funny after Mr Lee entered. He gave us a little talk and then wanted to start on physics. Everyone was silent and the atmosphere was solemn. I turned back, intending to ask the monitresss if she wanted to turn back, then, WeiZhen asked me first. Then I ask Rebec. While she was contemplating, I just stood up and pushed my table and chair. Next thing you know, the whole class just follows.

Amath, supposedly to have a test. I got stuck at question 4, thinking " Time;s running out. Shit !! What the heck is this ?! Show that x-2 is a factor. But there's a freaking remainder of -30 ! Urgh.. Should I skip? Hmmm. How much space should I leave for this question ?" When I finally decided to skip it and go to the next question, somebody told Ms Tan that there's an error in the question. I looked up. She checked, and said, there was an error. Immediately I felt a glimpse of hope for me in amath. I'm not that a noob afterall :D Somebody else said "Wahlao. Waste my time leh, cher !! Extend the time leh !" Another, "Cher, can retest not??" And I was happily trying question 5 :) In the end, we'll be having a retest on monday and this was just a practice paper.

After school went to 3D to blow ballons for Boss Ong's birthday. Sadly, two popped after we passed it to her. But its okay. HAHA. Went to stadium with her and some other friends.
Results:
100m Heats 1: 2nd.
200m Fianls: 1st.
400m Heats 1: 4th.
I'm quite bad at long distance. In the first place, is 400m a dash or jog ?! I don't put much hope on the other events, but I will try my best, definitely, for myself and my house.

RED HOUSE FTW.

Sweat, tears, and all my fears.

2011-03-31T22:33:00.002+08:00

3 months, 90 days, 2 160 hours, 129 600 minutes, 7 776 000 seconds.

I just breezed through a quarter of the year like that.

I remember the first day of lessons, totally scared of what's ahead, if I could cope with all the subjects.
Here I am, and I made it through Common Test 1.
I made a goal, to be in the exco of the student council.
Here I am, the vice president.
I was afraid of making new friends.
Here I am, got to know my some of my classmates, bit by bit, and more to come.

There's still many spaces I need to fill, many loopholes I need to tighten. I will definitely try to achieve my targets for all aspects in my life now. I know I'm mentally weak, easily brought down and demoralised. But I'm working on it. My time management is not very good. Especially if I'm given many tasks at once. I'm not disciplined with myself yet.

Wounds heal,

but leave scars.

Look ahead,

your goals seem far.

Sweat, tears, and all my fears,

don't give up, success is near.

2011-03-27T20:43:00.000+08:00

I haven't updated in quite awhile. Anyway, i think my blog is pretty much a failed one. Got the urge too delete it but its supposed to be a collection of memories and thoughts as I grow up. Wouldn't it be cool when you're all grown up and look back into the past, how you've matured and been through a hell load of stuff, to get you to where you are ? Even when you've kids, you can share all your memories with them. Okay, I know its very far fetched.

Some random pictures and descriptors :)

My favourite fruit --- Strawberries! This is the giant one. A few weeks back, Cold storage had this stock of strawberries at $15+ per box. I bought it! Sweet and juicy. :)

Tiramisu from Modesto's @ Harbourfront Vivo City. Went to eat there with my family. We ordered some lunch set and chose this for dessert. It's really sweet. The chocolate sauce is heavenly. The tiramisu itself is awesome, although i think Prego's is nicer. It costs $15+ alone.

A card I made for somebody. 15th March.

Some balloon sculture exhibition of some sort @ marina square some time last week. I went there on a friday if im not wrong. The ballons were really cute. Didn't view the whole thing as I was with my family and without a proper camera.

Opening weekend @ suntec halls 602-603! The stage is really really nice. Some things might be better off not knowing.

Just yesterday...

Went to Angelin's 21st birthday chalet.

Civil servants have 50% off the chalet!

When we reach the porch of the unit, Angelin said it looked like some Japanese Occupation place. That sentence, plus the look of the white washed abandoned building overlooking the sea, just scared the hell outta me. Then, she asked me to open the door as I held the keys. 'I'm scared' was written all over my face. So, she went to open the door with me. Childish as it sounds, it was really creepy okay!! Put down all our stuff and went exploring the unit. Its freaking big. 5 bedrooms if I'm not wrong. All the rooms are linked to the balcony except for one or two I think. The kitchen has a staircase leading up to the second floor too! The unit is bigger than my old house @Villa Verde, CCK N5. Mat and Jocc took a seperate cab as we had 5 people at tampines. They initially alighted at the unit itself. Then, they walked over to the reception and back. HAHA. After they reached, we started decorating the place. As I looked out, there were people sailing and saw yatchs. I want to own one !

The sunset is really, really, really nice.

I left for a while to the airport to fetch my mum. After that, went back to the chalet with brother for the cutting of cake.

Bel Fiore.

I ought to get started on my homework session #2 again.

Au revoir. :)

Chillpill!

2011-03-04T20:04:00.000+08:00

Maybe I just didn't try hard enough. Maybe I don't put in enough effort.Or maybe I was never meant to be.

Time to do self reflection, yes no?

Alright! Common test is OVER.
Generally did alright for the papers, except A.Maths. Shall wait and see the fruits of my labour. :B
I'm hyped up for Bintan Camp yohh! Off to get the stuff I lack tomorrow with yaani and ong. The only bad thing is that I'm taking the first ferry, and have to report to school by 6.15 am! x.x Kill me, please. I'm a dead sleeper. Hope SWH can let us stay over at her house that night.
&& This sunday, it's ECP with AWESOMEz! Can't wait, can't wait! :D

Suddenly cannot think of anything to blog about, when I thought of a lot at school -___- So sorry for the brain blockage! Heh.

Have a great weekend!

Nostalgic.

2011-03-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

A note slipped into his letter box,

" 当我知道你们相爱, 有了开始, 有了未来。

I feel that I've no rights to call you a bastard, because I was a bitch first. I shouldn't have walked away. I shouldn't have said the things I did. I was selfish, probably, just wanting you when I needed you, and neglecting you when I was busy, when you needed me the most. I shouldn't blame you for not being supportive, or even taking the initiative to show some concern and talk to me. I rejected you all the time, and left you to wonder when my reply was 'idk' . I was wrong for always finding fault in you and not checking myself first. I can't blame you for ignoring me now, because I was the one who pushed you away.

I just wanna let you know that I can't give up. I'm still holding on, not letting go. It's not within my control, or perhaps it is. I can't seem to stop missing you, even when I tell myself that it's over because I ended it. When we talk, I feel like nothing had changed. But I know deep down, that everything's changed.
I miss the times we had together. When you held me in your arms, when you locked your fingers with mine, when you kissed me gently on the lips. Time can never rewind. I can't read between the lines. You'll never be mine. And I'm tired of pretending everything's fine. It's all my fault.

Maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming. I want to walk with you hand in hand on the beach, under a blanket of stars. I want to hold you in my arms, and kiss you in the moonlight, sitting on the sand, as you hug me goodnight.

Remember this. Together or not, I'll still remain here, just a call or text away, if you ever need someone to listen to your woes and share your burdens. Even if you don't know how you should go about saying things, I won't mind if you want to call, say nothing at all, just to know that someone is there for you.
I'm trying to move on from the relationship we once had, because you're over me, I suppose. Seeing how you move on hurts me, but I know its the best for both of us. Selfish thinking, maybe. But you really seem alright. And now, its my turn to be fine. I gotta go my own way.

I love you. "

Tears trickled down his tan skin. He knew, deep down, he wasn't happy with the relationship he was having. He was just trying too hard to cover up the scars and heal his broken heart. He was not over her, not one bit.

2011-02-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

I want to be the one that's always here for you, to say that when you've got nobody, you've got me. I want to be the one that you confide in, someone who's important enough that you can't live without. I want to freely share, knowing nothing would be judged by you. I don't want to be a substitute for her, the one that went away. I don't want to drift apart. Maybe due to tue fact that I'm already over-reliant on you. I feel that I'm not important, insignificant, unloved. I know I'll never reach her level.
-Random thoughts.

2011-02-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

One sixth through.

Common test starts in approximately 3 days, 14 hours and 15 minutes!

I've a really bad feeling about this, especially for Amaths. I've not been able to solve a single thing on my own since the start of the year. For the very first test on Logarithms, I got a pathetic 8/35. I've not done well for any class tests for that matter. I barely passed all of them.

Chinese is my ultimate weakness because there's nothing I can do to improve it. I have a personal disliking for it. Once I start reading chinese, I'll get really restless and sleepy. Same goes to when I step into the classroom CL-05 for lessons.

English is still fine because I do read books and what not. Physics just bore the hell out of me. Chemistry is just fine. I neither dislike or really love it. Pure Geography is sorta interesting. It didn't turn out to be as boring as I thought it would be, probably because Ms Trixie Lim's teaching. She's a really nice teacher. :)

Combined Humans and Emaths...nothing much to say about it.

Efforts to pyscho myself to love Amath because of the saying "If you love math, it will love you back." Unfortunately, it isn't working.

Had the second sports trials today.

Results:

400m -1.36 min

Long jump - 2.09m

Triple jump - 6.46m

My first time jumping, so I think I fair pretty well. Fun ttm :) But I don't think I'm a good jumper though. Maybe I shall join track and field if there is in Poly/JC. The first sports trial for 100/200m, we all ran 150m. I forgot my timing, but if im not wrong, its slower than last year.

Glad to be back together again :B

I pray I will do well for this common test.

You should too! :)

Study hard, everybody!

I'm just a call away if you wanna study with me.

2011-02-18T19:12:00.000+08:00

Absent from blogging for long enough.

First up, Cookie baking @ YanBin's !

Let the pictures do the talking. :)

Credits to me! I took most of the pictures. :B WeiZhen's camera and she uploaded it, though. Awesome times. Remember last year's @ SuWei's. I fell sick right there, but had a hell load of fun.

Suwei was accompanying me :D

See no touch.

I couldnt eat them because YanBin mama didnt allow me to.

In the end, she forced me to drink a cup of water for every cookie eaten or something like that.

Pictures and some memories, that had to help me through.

Moving on,

I had an AMath test on Logarithms today. It killed me. However, I will not fail. No, no, I won't. Went for geog remedial after school because I pathetically failed the first class test, achieving 10/25 -__- I admit, I didnt study for it, thus, the poor result. Rushed down for training. In the end, Istvan said "Take individual and you can go home."

Reason : I'm having competition tomorrow and Sunday!

I will do my best. I will not be shaken. I will stay focused.

National Junior/Cadet Trials, Fighting!

Off to have my dinner now. Wish me luck! Goodbye. :)

2011-02-04T22:47:00.007+08:00

How's your Chinese New Year ? :)

Its quite boring this year for me. I've never really like visitations because its just so boring without cousins. All the adults will be chattering at one corner or gambling/playing mahjong outside. All my Dad's cousins's kids are majority above 18, except for one. But still, I don't talk to them. Call me antisocial for all I care. :)

I kinda think that the tradition is somehow getting lost in transition already. Last time I remember giving oranges to all the elders. But now, its just --shake hands-- 'happy new year' --smile-- . And, nowadays, more and more people are going abroad for the CNY break, which is commonly known as "bi nian". Its like a whole new generation now and culture is getting buried. Oh wells. I think, if i had cousins, I wouldn't complain that much. Like, who doesn't have cousins! ohmy... D:

When I was bored, I went to YouTube to see some How To videos. There's this girl wearing a really gorgeous name necklace, and she posted the link in the info box. So, the ever curious me, went to take a look. I really want it! Its 69 Canadian dollars, about 90 SGD, for the sterling silver one. I want the white gold, baby! Its 189 Canadian, about 210 SGD.

This is the sterling silver one.

The white gold one doesn't have much difference in appearance. Maybe it's just brighter and heavier ? Just making a guess. I want it for valentines or my birthday, from _____ with engravings! :(

Alright, that's about all. Its back to norm by sunday night, and school on monday all over again. A great big sigh. But, I can face it. I can take on mountains. The darkness comes I will not fear. Your love will wipe away my tears. :B

GodBlessYou :) I dreamt of you last night, and I was wishing the dream would never end.

Only to reach the climax, where you pushed me aside and walked away.

I felt devastated, there and then, in my dream, I realised, I shouldnt have pushed you away so hard.

I love you, yes, I still do.

2011-01-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

Friends who speak up for you in front of a common group of friends when they are bitching about you Make My Day.
Thank God for creating such wonderful people and placing them in my life. (L)

2011-01-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

If you don't really like to read discouraging stuff, I suggest you exit my blog, right now.

Today has been pretty crappy. I woke up late, at like 6.50 or so. cabbed down to school, which cost me 12 bucks. Forgot to bring my parents letter for the day I was absent. I think I totally flunked my first chemistry test. Emotions quite down lately, feeeling stressed. Information overload. Situation lost control. But out of all these, there're bound to be people and things that make your day a hell lot better. It's through these sucky times that you count your blessings and be happy for the good things. :)

I've been trying real hard to keep myself calm, away from stress, away from drowning in the emo world. I've pushed myself to be positive for too long. I'm getting tired. I'm getting discouraged. I'm losing the momentum. Somehow, I just feel like throwing every single ball that I'm juggling with in life, and just go to the beach, chillout and relax, not thinking about anything at all, away from the bustling city life. I don't wanna hold on anymore. I don't want to get my hopes up, and watch them fall everytime. I don't want to live in this world where people who you didn't expect would, backstab you so bad. I've been naive for too long, discovered reality too late.

I guess I should stop ranting already.
Have a good day ahead :)
Bye :) (L)

2011-01-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

Ohla Amigos. How was your day ?

I fell sick yesterday with what I assume is stomach flu. Much better after resting last night. Stayed at home today to make sure I'm totally alright. Back to school tomorrow! Two days of homework straight for tomorrow. *CLAPS. Luckily, there's no training. Hope when I go back to train on Thursday, I won't die off halfway. :/
While at home, I did the homework that I could complete -- physics. I started doing my math tutor. Felt sleepy after doing a few pages. Amath is totally a killer. I don't understand anything. Daddy, please find me a tutor soon. Also, I had time to just lie down and relax. Play my keyboard. Enjoy music. & Watch some tv dramas. Managed to sleep early last night too! :B Im involved in some BeiJing school visit event tomorrow. I really have some problems sounding like a Chinese when I speak mandarin. :O
I want to pop by town to get my new year clothes, and ben&jerry's ice cream, free, courtesy of Singtel AMPed. I've a craving for dragon beard candy and tidbits :( I know it will make me grow fat altogether. But I feel like eating!

Bye!
Have a great week ahead. :B

When something's hidden from you, you want to find out what it is.

When you know about it, you want to know even more about it.

Knowing so much, will only make you feeling worse.

Thus, somethings are better off not knowing at all.

2011-01-22T19:17:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
'Twas still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the timeIt turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mineI'd go back to December, turn around and make it alrightI go back to December all the time
These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fallAnd then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night, The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreamingIf we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to December all the time.

imy. :')

2011-01-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

How was your week ? :) Mine was really, really bad.

School's been really hectic. Now I understand why people advice you to enjoy during lower secondary. Homework is a daily thing now. In addition, I AM STRUGGLING WITH DOUBLE MATHS. From Monday to Friday, I've been doing, at least trying, maths! I totally neglect the other subjects.

This week, has been disorganised, and not productive! Everyday, after reaching home at around 7 plus, I waste a lot of time dilly-dallying before washing up and starting work. I take out all the homework, and apparently, it seems to be A/E maths all the time! I try the questions again and again, only to find out that the answers are wrong every time, skip skip skip until its back to the first question, and ta-da! Nothing is done at all. I need TUITION T.T for the first time, I'm wishing I have tuition. I've always been an independent learner since young. I made it past PSLE and streaming without any tutoring. By this time, its already 10.30 or even eleven, and my eyes get all droopy and brain starts switching off. Most of the days, I just go to sleep without doing the rest of the work because its usually not due the next day.

Did I mention how much I love Literature lessons? ohmytian. I like it that we sit on the floor together, like a family although we don't really know one another yet. Sadly, its only a single period, twice a week :( I just bought the novel Things Fall Apart. Have yet to start reading. If I finish my work early tomorrow, I'll definitely start reading.

A pile of weekend assignments awaits. Expecting another hectic week ahead.

If you feel you're hanging by a thread, keep holding on. Even when there's no hope, even when it's really tough on you. Know that you're not alone, and all things will work out eventually. :D

Cheerios.

MOODLESS.

When truth is known, when reality sets in,

you find yourself unable to cope, concentrate, focus, forget, and accept,

the very thing you said you wouldn't be upset about.

2011-01-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

Its so late. But I've to blog today otherwise this week, I won't have any more time.
Lessons officially commenced this week. Everyday, time goes by so quickly. Basically, it's just school, eating, training, napping, doing homework, watching tv and sleeping.

Honestly, I miss 1E'09 and 2E'10. Although in the past, I really hated this E class (refer to older posts), I'm wanting to go back to the times we had lessons together as an active and rowdy class. Jokers everywhere, noisy lessons, getting in trouble. I miss CDJ^3 the happy 5 friends being crazy during lessons, laughing hysterically all the time. I miss singing with Jasper. I miss project works with the guys. I miss doing deco with the girls. Back to reality, we've all gotta move on with life. Good memories do stay forever, but we can't keep living in those times. Bad experiences, are to be learnt from and never repeated.

School's been hectic. Homework every single day. I suppose, it's as such in upper secondary. I go home everyday at about the same time because of either training or God-knows-what reasons.

Lessons wise...I,
absolutely love literature !
bored during physics.
cannot catch up with A/E maths.
do like chemistry.
enjoy core geography.
find the new SS teacher quite nice.
got Mr Yip as my chinese teacher and I think he's good.
haven't got used to the 3 periods before recess part.

Some highlights this week.
Went to chong pang with Liting and Jocelyn on wednesday to shop for CNY deco stuff. I was asking around for the cotton balls. As you know, the population in Yishun area are older, thus, I had to speak in chinese. Most of the time, I asked like this "ahhh. auntie, you mei you, ahhh, na ge...cotton ball? errr, mian hua qiu.". Most of the people I asked looked at me in a certain way, like they want to laugh. Evil right! Just because I speak mandarin like a Caucasian. :( I will imprive on my speaking! Yes, I will!

The next day, the happy 3 friends, skipped lunch and went outside the library to draw stuff. We are awesome artists, baby! Later that day, while doing deco with Joc, I was finding thumbtacks. After I finally found it, I opened it from the side by tearing it because I couldn't find any other way. The next bow of thumbtacks I found, I realised that actually, it was supposed to be opened from the top.

I exclaimed "Hey Joc! The box is open from the top one leh!".
Joc replied "Of course it's open from the top la. Which idiot will open from the side ?"
Me "I did for the previous box! *points at evidence"
Joc "-laughs! I'm so sorry -laughs!"

Also, the random chuting came into class and took photo with me the awesome. :D lazy to upload.

Friday, went to Angeline's birthday party @ Aloha. Super many people! We went up to our room and played Bang bang! Funny max. Left at around 11. Mathrine gave us a lift to amk. Trained home. :)

Saturday, I cooked lunch! Photo @ twitter. Practically cooped myself in the room for almost the whole day to complete my homework. Unfortunately, I still have yet to complete Literature and Chinese compo. Went to Ikea with parents to get stuff. I bought photo frames! Plan to print out some of my pictures and hang them in my room. Soon, my room will become like a mini art gallery. :D Posters, jig-saws, and pictures!

Alright. I'm off to bed.
Nights everyone!
hejdå.

2011-01-09T18:34:00.001+08:00

I'm back after a long first week at school!
A goal for blogger this year, is that I'll at least blog once a week. Although there might not be tags, I know there're people reading. Sound quite BHB, but that's how I am :P

Shall start from the first day of school alright?
The first day of a brand new year. Quite havoc, especially the part on doing duties. Completely blur like sotong about who are the people doing it with me. Duty as Area IC = Fail. Mr Lee and Ms Lim are quite nice, based on first impression and comments by others, mainly seniors. I chose the seat right in the middle, just like during sec 1 and 2. I sat directly in the middle of class. Super loved the seat cuz all around me are people I know. :B There was only ONE break, because its a tuesday, AND, its push back by ONE PERIOD, which is 45 mins. My poor little tummy was crying like mad. Times in class, actually did nothing much. Basically, just listen to the teacher talk. Kenna sabo-ed by Joc to be in deco comm with her T.T two years and again. ROAR. whats more, to think I'll be making the class motto out which I dont really like...

Second day, wednesday, brought along books as follows the timetable. In the end, didnt use at all T.T My left arm literally couldn't be lifted up without it hurting. Highlight of the day was quite epic. During chinese period, I didnt know normal chinese students need to go to another class. I knew it after a few moments when the HCL teacher stepped in. So i quickly grabbed my stuff and left with another 3 classmates. We went around the school trying to find the classroom. The locations that Mr Chua told us to try, all didnt have anybody in it. Just to summarise, we search the whole school, from level 1 to 4, and wasted 30mins. Finally, we settled into 3E's chinese period because it was the only class with seats available.
After that period, I left with fellow S10C crew for the sec 1 pre camp activities, which lasted all the way until 6 plus 7. By that time, I was super hungry. Dory, Liting, and I went to khatib MRT. Liting simply waited for Dory and I to finish eating. We looked like those people who got retrenched and had no money for food, except those $2 chicken rice. HAHA. Finished and homed after that.
Packed my bag for camp. Initially wanted to stay up until midnight to wish mummy happy birthday. But I couldn't tahan, and she kept pushing me to sleep. So, I just went to bed, and knocked out the moment I hit the pillow.

Third day, Thursday. woke up super early, like 5 am, to prepare for camp. Dory's dad gave me a lift to school :)
Reached and met up with Liting. Wanted to write the script for campfire/CCA performance. But didnt have time. Reported and bla bla bla admin stuff. Met 1F at class due to the rain. Moved to mph for briefing. Moved to sports hall to start the games! If I list down everything we did, the post would be very draggy. So, I shall summarize. We played. We cheered. We shouted. We were busy. We ran. We ate. We prepared for campfire. We had the campfire. We had fun. We bathed, and slept. 911 was cancelled due to rain :( replaced by a movie. The sec 1s cheered when they heard that. They missed out on the fun.

Forth day, Friday. Woke up, washed up. Woke a few sec 1s up. Reason being : THEY WAKE UP VERY EARLY! They had until by 6 to wake up. Most of them started waking up at 5.15 and so on. T.T Its okay.. They're young and energetic. I'm becoming old. :/ Amazing race was the highlight of the day. My group only completed 6 stations. But we had fun, I would say. Clean up, present prize etc etc and break camp.
Went home and napped for an hour before going out for mummy's belated birthday dinner @Buckaroos. Its at Andrews Ave, near sembawang park. Something like a pub cum restaurant? Buffalo wings there are nice :) The bread bowl soup is awesome. The texture of the bread is superb. The soup is tasty too. A choice of clam chowder or mushroom. I had clam chowder. Bloated and drained by the time I got home. Washed up, unwind, slept because CCA carnival the next morning.

Saturday ! CCA Carnival. I woke up late! like 10 mins before reporting time. Rushed over and started to take photos for NYAA submission. Luckily I could hit the target. The super nice shots are the NCC performance, netball, calligraphy and stone carving. Lazy to upload. :P If I feel like it, I'll in the next post or so.
KTPH to eat aft that with Fith, Belle, Ong and Poon. We were crazy. Went to take BMI so many times. The picture of all the result slips are still in my camera. Haha ! You guys should go there to take your BMI too !

Today, choir, church. Ate, homed. Found out my seat has changed to the side of the class. :( the corridor side. BooHoo! Have yet to do homework. Shall be on my way to do it NOW!
E/A math and chem. Bye !
Ps. No pictures. I am lazy and tired.
Haven't got back enough sleep after camp.

Goodbye 2010. Hello 2011.

2011-01-01T00:11:00.001+08:00

Its a new beginning, a new chapter.
Let go of all the bad experiences in 2010.
Forgive those you need to.
Appreciate those around you.
Release all your regrets in 2010.
Learn from those mistakes made.
Love everybody, just as you want to be loved.
2011 will be a much better year. :)

New Year Resolutions!

1) Stay healthy and happy!
2) Keep organized.
3) Grow : Physically, Spiritually, Mentally.
4) Spend more time with family and friends.
5) Study hard, play even harder.
6) No grades below B3, except chinese, C5.
7) Further develop keyboard and vocal skills.
8) An award for fencing.
9) SC Ex Co.
All in all,
To be a really nice person in general, as a student, as a fencer, as a student leader, and as a church-goer.
:D

In 2011,
I want to see myself more developed in all areas, to be an all-rounder.
I want to manage my time well, making use of time wisely, which goes the same for my finances.
I want to see myself serving God more, growing closer to Him.
I want to see myself excelling in Student Council, a position in the Ex Com.
I want to see myself acheiving in fencing, an award, trying for an individual one.
I want to see myself being friendly, more patient, caring and loving.

Put your best foot forward.
Stand straight.
Stomach in.
Chest out.
Take a deep breath.
Be prepared to take on all the challenges that you might face.
All the best!
Jia You!

2011. Here I come!
Its another 365 days.
To love.
To learn.
To shine.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
Philippians 4:13.
--Jessica

CHEERIOS :D

2010-12-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

uhh. ohh.
Its about 2 hours to 2011 !
&I've yet to post dedications. :/
shall rush them out, now !

Memories through this year (L)

Two years with you guys.

The journey has been awesome,
although we kinda drifted this year,

we have another two great years ahead to catch up!

Yes, we did do many childish and crazy stuff.

Like snatching magazines and screaming over idols,.

But, although we've grown up and matured,

there're still many more crazy things that have yet to happen.

This year has been awesome with you guys!

Thanks for the company through this year. :)

In the beginning I was unsure,

but it turned out that we clicked pretty well.

Talks about hunks, stars, kpop, and really retarded stuffs.

Laughing uncontrollably.

Disturbing and sabotaging one another.

Playing pranks.

Telling cold jokes.

After school lunches.

Projects and study sessions.

All the memories will definitely be etched in my heart.

Love you guys, totally!

Prefects!

Many many memories.

Accepted into PB just this year, I've really grown a lot.

Thanks to Mrs Sim for giving me a chance (L)

Anyway,

thanks to all the seniors for guidance,

and to all prefects for making my life in PB enjoyable.

From daily duties to external events,

jobs may be tough and tiring,

not to mention, stressed sometimes,

but I had fun with everyone.

Its the last year PB exists.

Next year's SC and so forth,

I believe many more memories will be made.

Fencers FTW ! \m/

Two amazing years training together.

Although I'm only close with a few people,

I'm sure we all are close in some way because we train together!

All the sweat and no blood. :)

We simply ROCK.

Let's work hard for the coming year,

and make history !

ChangYiLuan.

I'm speechless for your dedication,

'cause you've been a really awesome friend.

Thanks for being my listening ear always.

Thanks for love and tender loving care. :)

Many many thanks for everything!

(L)

Not forgetting,

my City Harvest Family.

With so many people,

I just want to say a big thanks for taking care of me since I entered.

Although things have changed,

I'll never forget those memories.

(L)

Also, another new family, the choir.

Its been almost a year i guess.

I'm looking forward to much more times together ahead.

Within such a short time, these are all the dedicatons I can think of. :)

If I didn't write yours, apologies, so feel free to text me for it!

Dont be shy :D

Celebrate 2011 started ! :)

Enjoy your last hour of 2010 :D

Bye !

2010-12-27T14:12:00.000+08:00

Haven't updated for two weeks! :/

This is probably the first time during the holidays that I'm wishing school would reopen fast.
I'm really bored at home now.
If fencing camp didnt cancel, I'd be at sentosa training now.
If S1OC meeting didnt cancel, I'd be at school now.
If I didnt wake up late and had parents consent, I'd be at sentosa playing with ziman and belle now.
ROAR.
today's afternoon kinda wasted.
cant find my camera to upload pictures..
but nevermind.
I'm going to watch movie later at night. :B

Next year marks the start of a brand new life.
New class, new friends, new subjects, new teachers, new duties, new leadership board, new church building.
But somethings still remain the same.
School attire, fencing, my old group of friends, choir mates, cell group.
It'll be fun. Yes, it will be.
The only thing I dread is the recess part. :X
I dont know why either. I just dislike the feeling.

I've a lot of catching up to do next year.
Feeling the stress even before school starts because I know many people have started studying. :/
I really really dont like the competitive spirit.
Many people have started tuition and whatever stuff.
And me, nothing at all.
I havent even done homework. ._.
The slacker, me.

Next year, its gonna be, Jessica Song, whaitingg !
Definitely will set goals for the new year, something I fail to do every year.
Topping the list would be the following :
Make 2011 the best, most awesome year yet !
Stay healthy and fit.
Keep myself organized.
Do not blow things off to the last minute.
Grow, spiritually and physically.
Spend more time with family and friends, be it church or school.
Study real hard, play even harder.
No grades below B3, with chinese as an exception, the lowest C5.

Material possesions, have yet to think of any.
I think I've no lack, actually.

The next few post, I'll find time to type out dedications. be sure to check those out ! :)

2010-12-12T20:44:00.000+08:00

Untold stories, tumblr.

Short trip to KL, thursday to saturday, yesterday.

The most stupid thing I did was to : OFF MY PHONE.
System hacked, couldn't get it back on.
Couldnt type my immediate thoughts and reactions towards stuff.

Pictures are only for the beginning of the trip. Reason stated above. :B

Bored on the bus to causeway. Played with the Pudding Camera app from my phone. Teeheehee.

Crossing causeway @ Tuas

Approaching Malaysia's custom.

Take a look at my ~~girlfriend~~ shoes !

At the rest stop, as the picture says it.

The first sight of the city after I woke up :B

Travelled by coach to and from KL. Aeroline there and Grassland back. Aeroline's seats are cramped, but they provide food and their service is good, more expensive. Grassland's seats are so much more comfortable although the service kinda suck and no food provided, cheaper.

When we arrived at The Royale Bintang, my parents were saying the hotel was very familiar, and they were guessing the previous name of the hotel. Eventually, they asked the conceirge while checking in, and the lady who served us told us it was previously Novotel. It's the same hotel I stayed in when I was in primary 1, 7 years ago, first trip to KL. Most of the time spent there goes to eating, I think. Went to places like Pavilion, Lot 10, Fahrenheit, Sungei Wang Plaza, BB Plaza, Times Square.

Pavilion : I want Paul Frank ! I saw it on the first day there. The pullover was 300 RM. :( The amount I planned to spend at Sungei Wang / Time Square. The phone case and laptop sleeve from there goes in my wishlist too ! Thus, I came up with a saving plan in my head, and I will carry it out next year :) The Loaf, a bakery. The uhu hu mini cheesecake is really really awesome.

Lot 10 : The food place at the basement is cool. The sushi totally sucks. But ! The hokkien mee and wagyu beef burger is superb. The pork knuckles is scrumptous.

Fahrenheit, or however you spell it : I forgot what's there. HAHA.

Sungei Wang : Claims to have over 500 shops. To me, its nothing like it. Its something like bugis. The stuff here and there are all almost the same. I really liked a few stuff like dresses and shorts. But most of the dresses are free sized and the shorts small sized are too big for me. Sighs. But its okay. Nando's Chicken. Completely a failed one. Singapore's is much better.

Times Square : Went there to past time before boarding the coach. Krispy Kreme or smth, sells doughnuts and coffee. Comparable to J.Co. Thumbs Up ! Papa John, selling pizza, comparable to Domino's . Another thumbs up :B The shopping wise, its like Sungei Wang, but I think its better. Should have went there earlier instead.

Along the streets to the hotel, Outback Steakhouse. There was no beef ribs that we initially went there for. Ate sirloin. Its really worth to eat there because it's dollar for dollar. Also, I found turkish ice cream ! Havent had it for like a million years.

Before I came back, knowing I'm health conscious (-.-), we stumbled upon weighing machines along the way out of a shopping mall. My dad keep pestering me to take. The final results came out. I was 1.58m, 46.5kg. D: I grew one cm and 5kg. *Depressed. I want to grow taller and skinnier. 160cm 45kg next year. Roars.

Thanks for reading.

2010-11-30T00:35:00.002+08:00

PIG ! This is for you.

2010-11-30T00:22:00.000+08:00

Its been a week since I blogged. :O
many awesome stuff happened :))
but, sadly, not many pictures. ya da ya da ya da. boring.
I'm lazy to include pictures today. As much as I want to be nice to upload, camera's dead & I've no idea why it still cannot on/charge up when I connect it to the computer.

Continuing, I had an awesome birthday !

First of all, ONGZIMAN came over on 25 november to wait till 12 midnight to wish me happy birthday ! :) She brought a CHEESECAKE and MELTYKISS CHOCOLATES. We camwhored and LOL-ed .

Secondly, CHANGYILUAN spent the day with me @ ECP rollerblading. She came over and brought me HOMEMADE CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES with MY NAME in ICING. :) Unfortunately, My camera was dead and I didnt bring it out to take pictures.

Following that, Cell group meeting was fun. They celebrated for me. The CHOCOLATE CAKE was good. The PRESENT is awesome. Ed Hardy Make up kit.

Last but absolutely and certainly NOT least, Benj, YanBin, Suwei, Weizhen came to surprise me after cell group meeting. :D Totally LOVE them ! Photos up next time :)

The very next day, Open house.
Woke up at 6. Met Liting and Dory to cab down to school.
Overall, it was a good experience, being exposed to speak to different kinds of people. I like those parents that ask questions than those who keep quiet. Along the way there'll be awkward silence, which really suck. Jarel and I got the first parents that came in. Quite nervous then. But after that one, the following ones were a breeze. Along the way , I actually wondered if I had said a certain thing to the parent because it felt like I already had said it before. Due to my double duties, the one at IPW as well, I went in the exhibition class and started explaining also. LALALA. I'm a PRO ! xP just joking.

Sunday, service. Took pictures ! :) Up next time.

Yesterday, just a few hours ago, went school to get books. Then, went SHOPPING with mama :) Went from orchard to bugis. Bought two pairs of shoes and a bag :B -love love- .

Currently, watching boys over flowers on ch U :)

Bye ! :)
Apologies for adrupt ending.

2010-11-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

Unfair. Unreasonable. Unacceptable. Illogical. Ironic. Invalid. Ridiculous. Biased !
Yeap, if you're sensible enough, you can tell that I'm in a bad mood/pissed :)

ANYWAY. I shall move on.

[No pictures for today, I didnt bring camera out]

Went t training tday. Woke up late. So, I couldn't make my ham and melted cheese sandwich, also because there was no bread already. Bathed and rushed out of the house. Forgot to bring my water bottle. Life was hard. :( HAHA. Luckily for me, they just started when I reached school. Ran and ran and ran. Then, skipped rope. Coach had us to play the giant one (L). Adding on, Electrons ! thanks to joleen's suggestion. (Y) The rest of the training's as per normal.

Ong damn cute ! I said I lost my motivation. She asked me to look at one point. Then, she went to 'catch' it with her hands and asked me to look inside saying, "nah. your motivation." Rofl. xD Ong unglam while doing so.

After training, packed up. Went khatib central to draw money . Dear me. I'm spending money like water ! Now, I shall have budget cut for myself -.-'' Shouldn't have used school book money to eat so much. Roars ! Remind me to save money ! Following that, Ong, Yaani, and I went to KTPH :)) We walked towards the statue of KTP. Read the description or whatever you call that. Then, Ong tapped on the statue and said " Nice meeting you ! " or smth like that. Super LOL. Bought sushi and...

While buying big fruit bowl....
Auntie : Girl, what you want ?
Me : uhhh. I want a big fruit bowl.
Auntie : Small or big ?
Me : *looks over at Fithri with the O.o ? face and laughs.* Big bowl.

Eat eat eat. Talk talk talk.
We are all unsure of the trigger event. But, as we left the place, Ong went a little crazy... Along the way back to school, the intensity increases. She became a drunkard. HAHA. Too much for details. Basically, we were laughing and pushing and hitting each other. At school, the water fight started. I had the bottle. Ong had her mouth. Her attempt to spit at me failed terribly while I happily splashed water on her. :D The craziness toned down as the instructors arrived.

Evaluation today. I faired badly ttm baby ! Lazy and unwilling to elaborate.

Home-d with Ong. Jogged with Ong.
A sense of accomplishment today ! I ran 2km without stopping !
She came over my place after getting my deliciously refreshing carrot and red apple juice. (L)
First comment when she entered : Hey. Your house smells like hotel.
Hahahahehehehohoho. :)
Big time Stalker ! Looking through all my stuff in my room.

Left after awhile. I went to buy dinner and soybean milk :) Awesome . ^^
Surprisingly, I felt full afer eating half of the rice. So, I ate the ingredients and the un-clumped rice.
yknow, some places the rice is like, there're clumps of it. Disgusting. :/

My sewing skills are failed. X.x
Very ugly and messy. I doubt I will be a good wife/mother in terms of this area.
HAHA.

alrights ! Boys over flowers is showing now on ch U. *Highly recommended ! Monday to thurdays 11.30pm. :) Its my second time watching and I'm not sick of it. (Y)

Byebye & Goodnight !

2010-11-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

*burp !
I'm back from marina square :) For dinner today, family went to eat Pariss Seafood Buffet . This is due to my mother's craving for crabs. The initial plan was to eat International Seafood at East Coast on Friday as my birthday celebration. However, she couldn't wait any longer, so, we had the celebration today.

I wore wedges because I thought we were just cabbing to east coast to eat and cab back home. But, after leaving house, change of plans. Thus, I had to bear with it. Adding on, I went shopping upon finishing dinner.
Feet aching like mad. Boohoo :(

Butbutbut !
Still, I'm easily contented. I bought my tanks and slippers, and ordered my kickass shoes (Y) Saw : High cuts @ TopShop (SGD 59) and Rubi (SGD 30 ? ) . I wanna buy high cuts ! My dad initially said he would to buy TopShop's for me. But, I feel kinda bad. Then after that went to Rubi's along the way to the mrt. Although its cheaper, I still feel bad. So, didnt buy. :X I gotta change this while I still can. C'mon ! I'm a kid. Parents are supposed to buy stuff for you. :@ Grrrr ! Anyway, besides high cuts, Heels/Wedges @ too many places that I cant remember. The nicer ones are at TopShop. Unsure of the price. Really really tempted to buy because I think my current wedges are going kaboom ! anytime soon.

Alrightz.
Its time to tempt you with pictures.
Although they might not look appetising in the pictures, they're really scrumptously-deliciously-wonderfully-awesome. HAHAHAHAHA. oh yeah. I know its bad to eat all these stuffs.
But, we really really seldom eat okayy !

First up, for starters, Shark's fin with alaska crab meat soup. :)

Fried rice, Squid, Crabs, Vegetables.

Grilled Ayu Fish :)

Beef steak. Had second sevings for this because its just too awesome ! \m/

Prawns, Mussels. The two 'sticks' you see there aint some trash alright . Its Snow Crabs ! More below.

Snow crabs ftw ! I think I'm quite suaku. I thought there's meat in the body. However, it turned out to be very little. More was in the legs. The meat taste a little sweet on its own. (Y!) \m/

Pincer (?) of the snow crab. Daddy gave it to me and said " nah. Birthday girl "

My brother had the blur/stunt face because I think he was the one that took it.

Mama's thumbs up ! Look at the whole piece of flesh. Awesome !!

Fresh Canadian Oysters ! I trust that its not live. HAHA. (Y!)

Grilled dory filled with thai chilli sauce. Quite nice. :)

Some taiwanese milk tea with pearl.

Normal milk tea taste better.

Koi tastes 5x better --> Brother's claim. I've never drank Koi before. failed ! -.-

Otah, my dad went to take. Its totally of no standard. PB's bbq's otah is much nicer !

(Y) \m/ Jap stuff. The green stuff is awesome. ^^ Can anybody tell me what exactly is that ? Failed ! :/

bwahahaha. Salmonnnn ! (L)

The healthy part. Not really ! I only ate the watermelon.

(Y) \m/ The best among the three is the lighter colour chocolate cake. Its really really really nice ttm ! I think I ate 3 or 4 of those. *Sinful.

Strawberry ! I thought I should change flavour since the cakes and puffs were already chocolate.

ohyeahhh.

Next, the shopping part.

Christmas lights !

SMILE ! :) so cute :B xoxo

c-h-o-c-o-l-a-t-e-s-!

Mum's favourite, Godiva.

Thats about all the pictures I took today. :)

oh gosh. its past midnight. There's fencing and blading tomorrowww :)

Gotta hit the pillow soon.

Please tag okkkk :))

Love you !

Byebye & Goodnight ! :D

2010-11-20T12:20:00.000+08:00

Ohgosh. I'm such a failed blogger. -.-
Anyway, moving on.

10 November 2010.

Went to Pasir Ris Park/ Downtown East.
It was a sudden change of plans :)
Went to eat buddy hoagies and then, to pasir ris park.
Abu, Makeawish and Roo went cycling. :)
Through the whole journey, most of the converstion is something like this.
"EH EH. Turn right or left ?!" ; "Right !" ; "Left !" .

Had an awesome time there. OHYEAH. \m/
It left me dead beat when I went home that night after meeting my family for dinner.

Pictures !

[Ps x.x I'm lazy to upload all.]

Up next,

16 November 2010

When retards ran under the rain from ktph to the 858 bus stop. xP

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

For pictures,

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=254735&id=714702139&l=a4bbc84606

Take a look for yourself. :)

[any problems viewing, tag me !]

Boarded the bus soaking wet, and was shivering cold at first.

After alighting, I got drenched, yet again, while walking home.

DID YOU KNOW THAT RAIN IS ACIDIC?

ohmy. I didnt know that at first until somebody told me.

I think its my mum or brother who told me.

Super shocked.

I will try to avoid the rain as much as possible from now, although its fun :/

The very next day,

17 November 2010

When I bought my blades, and went to PB CHALET !

@Novena Square.

There's this eatery Salad Stop. #02-24.

Brilliant place to eat for vege lovers, health conscious and on-diet peeps !

My awesome salad.

Prices are quite reasonable, since healthy food isnt cheap anyway.

If my memory doesnt fail me,

9.50 for the basic vegetables and toppings.

Additional Toppings or Premium Vege range from 1.50 to 3 bucks.

Personally, I felt full after eating half of it.

Shared it with my mother. :)

@White Sands & Coasta Sands

Pictures are at :

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=255655&id=714702139&l=f8b130f934 :)

Hmmmm, how should I descibe the time there?

Eat. Laugh. Play. Celebrated Mrs Tan's birthday. Saw YunQian chasing Queenie around for putting ice down her shirt. Attempted to throw ice cubes down ChoonKuang's shirt. Ran around chasing Kelvin and Wesley. Got crazy and high with Liting.

Yeap. Thats sums it all up. :)

Blading course is gonna end soon. :( I'm not that good still.

I WILL go out to blade on my own very often.

Swimming's up to lesson 5 to date.

Frog style and thread water (? ; quite failed.)

Currently, my neck and shoulders are aching .

Probably due to over work out on thursday or a bad night's sleep.

Swimming lesson later at 7.

Hoho.

All the best to me !

Boohoohoo. Its about to rain. I see dark clouds in the sky through my window. :(

I dont like the weather during the nov-dec period.

Its always so humid+super hot sun+heavy rains.

which = Roo being unhappy.

I want to be able to forecast the weather so I can plan outings. :(

I guess Pure Geography will help me.

I'm trying to make myself feel better about going into G [not H, its G] class next year. LOL :(

Alrights. I've been on blogger for quite long.

Byebye !

Please tag okayyyy ! :)

2010-11-08T20:34:00.000+08:00

[ Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go

Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)

Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why

I tried

I tried to read between the lines

I tried to look in your eyes

I want a simple explanation

For what I'm feeling inside

I gotta find a way out

Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

I don't wanna ever love another

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road

Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know

Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)

Today I'm on my own

I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone

I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass

And longing for the breeze

I need to step outside

Just to see if I can breathe

I gotta find a way out

Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

I don't wanna ever love another

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope

I'm wrapped up in vines

I think we'll make it out

But you just gotta give me time

Strike me down with lightning

Let me feel you in my veins

I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go

Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

I don't wanna ever love another

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

And bring on the thunder, and I said

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder ]

Yeap.

Nothing to blog about recently.

And nobody tags.

So, its kinda pointless to blog.

Bye.

2010-10-31T21:13:00.000+08:00

no. 353.

I realise I dont blog regularly although exams are over.
Nothing big or significant happened.
No pictures taken or phrases to post.
I guess thats a reason.

Anyway.

Results slip received.
Quite happy about the ranking etc.

However.
English and Math are only average.
Chinese and History just dont go well with me.
Science was expected.
Literature was a surprise. :]
Geography...not much reaction to it because I'm almost totally uninterested.
Home Ec, Design & Tech and Art are not important for next year, but the first two pulled my overall up. :]

Plus points. :]
English, Math, Chinese improved by a grade, comparing to Mid Year.
Science didn't deteriorate.
Literature improved by...3 grades, comparing to Common Test 2.

Minus points. :[
History failed before moderation, resulting in pull down of marks by 2 grades for overall.

Saturday 30th october.
Went back to school early in the morning for SC selection.
Enjoyed it overall although I think some sections I faired badly.
Headed to Wendy's for lunch.
Totally unhealthy. :X
But, it was Fithri's birthday.
Trained home, bathed, napped, packed room, cooked dinner, washed equipment, went library, met YL.

She came over.
Had some play session in my room.
Yes, like those in childcare centres I suppose.
HAHA.
Sorry to expose you, pig.
But anyway, I had fun so it doesn't really matter.
What supposed to be bastard-ing me while I was trying to sleep became a puppet show.
Featuring dogs and distorted hearts xP

Sunday 31st october.
HALLOWEEN
but, I dont celebrate it so... no difference.
Supposedly to go trick-or treating.
However, parents disapproval.
went service today.
after that "auditioned" for "dance" part in chinese church christmas production.
proceeded to eat then home.

Here I am now. :)
Boring post.
Im fully aware.
But, Please tag :D
I'd love to know more friends.
I won't eat you up ! :>

Bridging programme tomorrow to thursday.
Nothing on Friday.
Roller blading Everyday except wednesday, training day.
Back to school almost everyday for the month of november,
Even on my BIRTHDAY.
roars.

Anyway, FYI, my birthday's comingg !
26 NOV :D
*hints.

2010-10-17T21:47:00.000+08:00

Im finally back :)

Exams are over, long ago.

I've been enjoying since marking day.

Not many, or should I say no, pictures taken. :O

Wednesday : Training followed by MARINA BARRAGE with fellow prefects <3

Thursday : Training followed by POOL with Bryan and JiaYi. :]

Friday : School. Received two papers back. Math and Science. Big disappointment. But kinda expected on the other hand :X shall not disclose my results on the internet like how i used to. Kept laughing during class because of Jasper, Clement, etc. Played some dumb dumb game. TOTALLY FAILED. 100% DUMB. HAHA.

Saturday : I painted my room :D Dad fixed a new shelf for me. I was supposed to pack my room but ended up using the computer to update my playlist.

Today : Service. Came straight home after that. Initially, I thought of packing my room. But Mama wanted to go for mani and pedi, so she said I could take my time to pack my room. Today go out with her and dad. I also bought Starbucks Java Chip :D ~loves. I saw molten chocolate cake at Starbucks too. *Drools. However, being an intelligent girl, I weighed the consequences of the fats and overwhelming calories. Thus, I decided it give it a miss.

School tomorrow. I suppose I will get back at least another two papers. Well, I've done my best, and I believe God will do the rest. :) Training after school. I rather physical training than free fencing. Bleh.

I gotta find new a motivation for fencing. Im almost giving up all hope already.

I wonder what class will I end up in next year. Judging by the math and science results, I think Im headed straight for F :X H is out. G has core geography which I have totally no affinity with. 2 years in a row with grade B. LOL.

Alright. Have to get off the iMac already. Otherwise I'll start watching anime and not sleep.

Busy week ahead, I suppose.

See you around !

Please tag :)

Whether I know you personally or not.

Thankyou super lots.

Have a nice day. :)

2010-09-10T15:37:00.000+08:00

heeheehee :)

alright.

Its 20 more days to end of year exam, excluding today.

I feel the pressure, although streaming's not a big thing.

Im weird in that sense, but oh well.

Taking a long long break after finishing chinese compo.

Lit essay's next on my list.

JB tomorrow, service on sunday.

Monday's school reopen.

1, 3, 5 would be study and exercise dates with beloved senior.

2 there's choir prac.

4 im free, i suppose.

It'll be like that until exams are over :]

Looking forward to post exam activities.

But, that would mean the year's ending duper soon.

oh wells.

All good things come to an end,

but I hope our friendship never will :]

2010-09-08T22:00:00.002+08:00

wassup with today.
morning kenna people attitude,
faced two jokers,
and now what ?
quarrel for nothing out of the blue?
like, whats wrong man.
zzz.

2010-09-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

2010-09-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

I didnt win.
The reasons were stupid.
Crap performance today.
I could have done better.
Why didnt I?
Why did I have to lose focus, lose track, at the last moment ?
Old habits, natural reactions.

30 seconds, might not matter, usually.
But during competition, you'll realise.
That it's all you need to win something, to get through to the next round.

I shouldnt grieve over this for too long.
Because i rather use the time to enjoy other things.

:)

2010-09-03T19:41:00.000+08:00

All the best for competition tomorrow, girl.
Believe in yourself.
Dont give up.
You've made it this far.
You've held on for so long.
Its not a time to let go.
But a time for breakthroughs.
C'mon, you can do it.
Its now or never.
minime 2010.
In 2009, you did it, you got bronze.
Thank God for coming through for me.
God, help me do it again.
I need you.

A roller coaster ride, I'll never enjoy.
Because I know Im not her, or even close.
When I get too happy, a thought will always strike my mind.
It'll always be " You'll never be as good, as important, as pefect. "
Things wont always be the same, like how the roller coaster goes up and down.
I wished I didnt know.
I wished I didnt care.
But now that I do,
I dont dare ;
To look away.
To lose sight.
To change my heart.
To change my mind.
I wanna know.
If you treasure,
care for,
and love,
me.

So many things to be said out loud.
So many things that are to be done.
And I hope one day,
The truth will come to light,
So that I can see for myself.

2010-08-26T22:30:00.001+08:00

26/08/2010

study times.

Nothing to say,

cuz I know I'll start ranting.

Oh well.

Yesterday was a busy day.

Dance in the morning.

Rushed home to prepare to go to expo for mama's SOT graduation service.

Lazy to elaborate.

Reached home at around midnight.

Too bloated to sleep, but fell asleep anyway.

Woke up today with muscle aches that came from who knows where.

Ate prata for breakfast, dad bought it.

Feel fat now.

I should be doing work now.

But Im procrastinating.

Whats becoming of me ?

oh gosh.

2010-08-25T19:59:00.000+08:00

funny faces :)

from the gallery @ YOV

Alright. I'll dive in straight to the details.

Today's kind of a boomz day.

Roller coaster experience.

Main Highlights :

Waves test today. I think I'll just pass.

I failed my chinese test badly.

I just passed my english test.

History test today as well. I think a 7 or 8 over 11 is okay for me.

Training today. The hungarians came :O The YOG people.

The male sabrerer is hot. *melts*

We all watched them fence cuz mr neo said so.

Thus, training was damn slack, didnt sweat much.

Competition is on 4 september. One More Week.

Teacher's day is on Tuesday. A few more days.

Dont you know, my heart is pumping.

Its putting up a fight.

2010-08-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

Since I cant find any pictures to post, I shall just have words in this post.

I found out that end of year is term 4 week 4.
I must start studying !
No more playing around anymore.
Also, Teachers day, mum's graduation and probably minime is in 2 weeks.
I feel like Im being tested in life right now.
So many things to handle and complete.

Oh wells.
I know I will come through stronger and better than before.

Jessica, Jiayou !
You know you can do it.
Keep holding on.
Dont ever look back, and never give up.

It sucks to hide and suppress my true feelings, because I've no where to express it.

People read my blog, twitter, facebook, and I cant turn to you, cuz you're the reason.

I think we're drifting, this time, for real.

2010-08-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

You're not alone

Together we stand

I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand

When it gets cold

And it feels like the end

There's no place to go

You know I won't give in

No I won't give in

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away

I wish you were here

Before it's too late, this could all disappear

Before the doors close

And it comes to an end

With you by my side I will fight and defend

I'll fight and defend

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe

Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly.